As part of testing 3 of the 30 Habits, I attacked my Gmail account on Friday night. I had over 5300 emails in 5 years stored in my bulging inbox. Newsletters, special offers, personal notes, bill payments – you name it, I’d kept it. I went on a culling spree, deleting messages in bulk and it felt great. Then I came across a bunch of emails which made my stomach drop.
I felt as though I had been transported back in time, back to the girl I was 4 years ago. I had such awful memories of this time in my life and had tried to forget it as best I could since. But going through these emails, reading these thoughts and conversations made me realise that things weren’t all bad and I started to feel an incredible ache of nostalgia. For my home town, the people and the time.
I’ve always been told that you should live in the moment not in the past, but it’s a tough feeling to shake. Eventually, as late as yesterday, I made the decision to snap out of it and focus on the life I’m leading now. No what would have happened ifs. No maybe things would be different now if I’ds.
Just here and now.